You've actually make me cried. Yes, again. I felt so useless. For the 1st time in my life, im so uncertain in my ownself, i questioned my abilities again & again but only to come to no avail. I thought i did it very well, but you make me seems so, so worthless. You actually have the ability to do so. I know im having emotionals posts recently, but i just can't help it. & im sorry for that.

You know it yourself clearly, that im a very sensitive person despite my crazy&happy looks. I could actually get sad even when you don't reply my texts withsmiling faces, i'm that sensitive. & you've make me cry, again & again, in this wee hours of the night, over just some stupid scores. Yeah, i mind, totally. I've been watching comedian for the past few hours, & i felt empty. Nothing goes into my mind, only sadness. I tried to sleep but i cant.

And i saw something i should'nt have seen. Yes, it do make me more sad. Stop contracdicting yourself & i can see what you are trying to convey. The last paragraph have make me even sad, & i'm sure it would have hurt anyone who seen that. It's an insult, or rather, a compliment to yourself. I don't know & i don't care. Cos' it seems that way to me.

& you jolly-well knows that you hate him as he always boost about how high his results is infront of you, & make you sad plus angry.
Now, know what? YOU are actually bringing the same torture to me, & double the effects, you're my closefriend too. Plus you've been telling me for like, the whole day?
Im obviously pretending not to listen since morning, yet you continue with your roarings. & i ald told you to mind your words.

Please, I still need my prides. They aren't for you to step on. I felt like suciding.

Sawyi.