Sawyi's ears are in pain.
Damn.
Even when im typing, i could feel th tingly of pain-ness reaching out for my nerves, I know it's pain.
It's bleeds, again & again.
Everyday, since after she targetted on me.
She pull my ear stud real hard. She ordered siying to pull it for me too. I sense her scare-ness on her fingertips as she helped me to take my ear-studs out.
My hearts beat in pain, i screams from within, i sense my mind whirling in circles, again and again.
But i could'nt stop it. Pains. Blood. & everything.
I want to rip off th pains, i want to scream as loud as i want, i want to cry as much as i could.

I tried to explain to misswong.
But she doesnt even listen, i cried, I struggled. But i could only be a doll being multipulated by her.
She said it's my problem, & so i went to see a doctor. Th doctor told me that i couldn't take it out as th piercing conditions have gone bad. He couldn't help me at all, then i might as well don't go see doctor.
It's in pain. For times, i feel like ripping my ears off and think of how to make th ear-studs out. This is how to make me smile, all over again.
I don't feel like going to school. I want to scream.

Everything pushing me down.
I'm strong.
I will hold on to everything so that i won't need to face her.

Save me, lord.

Love me,
Sawyi.