I should have blog last night.
I should have blog before i cried.
& i should have control my tears.
now, i got no mood to blog.

I wanna say how happy i was with Mango qinny yesterday.
Finding her shoes, blouse and skirt for th prom night.
I wanna say how excited both of us were for Christmas.
I wanna say how pretty she is in th blouse and skirt.
I wanna say how much how much i love her.
I wanna say how many places we travel yesterday.
I wanna say how many laughers we share.
I wanna say how happy we was when we bought th Bee bread and Christmas tree bread at bread talk.
I wanna say how yummy th christmas treee was.
I wanna say how not nice th bee bread was.
I wanna say how shock i was to see my sister at westmall.
I wanna say how me and qinny slip in this fashion when it was about to close.
I wanna say how much i crave for ice-creams.
I wanna say how nice th bubble tea i bought at IMM was.
I wanna say how fun it was to stand in th middle of th road.
I wanna say how much i wanna go qinny house.
I wanna say how tired i was yesterday.
I wanna say, i wanna say.
How much i love & enjoy th day out with Qinny yesterday.

I should have blog earlier before i cried.

It's all a lie.
I hate you two.
Get off & get away.
I treat you guys as goooood friends & yet.
She says noting.
But he says smeting.
If not for ----, i would have been buried in th truth.
Don't make me th last to know.
I won't scream, i won't shout, i won't yell.
But please, tell me th truth & i promise i will be good.
I will hide and let th walls share my tears with me.
I could not control them, th tears.
I close my eyes and it slipped out.
I looked up and it fell from th side.
No one is there, to catch my tears.
& i saw it rolled out of th corner of my eyes, shed tears.
for he & she.
It's not a relantionship problem but a friendship one.
I've given up on relantionship, but now friendship happens again.
I asked myself if there is anything wrong with me.
All i could see is my own shadow, all i could know is pretend not to know.
I hate how much they lied & how much trust i given them.
This th 2nd time, she lied.
I pretended, & i trust her again.
This th 1st time, he lied.
But he too easy to let out, of th clues.
It all happen, in just a few minutes.
But, my tears, cried for a few hours.
It cried for them, cos' im hurt.
It cried for myself, cos'im dumb.
It cried and it cried, as if its nobody business.
I tried to smile, but my face says im not happy.
I tried to control my tears, but my tears won.
I felt worthless.

Santa, please, i beg you, find a way to stop my tears before christmas, th season of joy.

But i still wanna thanks those that are with me when im sad,
Vinh, Aung, Marcus, Damien, Shiyin & my teddy bear.
Now i realise how much i treasure my friends,
i love all of them.
So, please,
Aven, shiyin, aung, eugene, zarni, weijin, vinh, ken,

cheryl, kaixin, clarice, weiting, cindy, chan yee, junxiang, jasmine, jinwei, chyi yin, huazhen, lifeng, huiling, steph, siying, xinmei & 2i1 peeps,

maine, shirui, peiying, laisi, tongmui,

qinny, gabbie, rika, esther lammy
& all those i know.
Please, i beg you, don't leave me cos' i love you.

Say byebye to th cheerful sawyi.
Kiss me goodbye now cos' its not coming back.
Sorry for not posting any pictures about yesterday out with qinny.
But i do love her & i really enjoyed myself yesterday.
Takecares,
Sawyi.