hiies . .

2dae miee askk xinn meii wanns go outt tuu JE mahhs . dhen hohh suddenly deborah koll moii fone nn say datt ii gort nominated ferr becumin a prefect .


dhen ii was shocked .


ii rush dwn of deehh bus .


dhen ii tel xm .


dhen we go dere 2gether lohhs .

dhen wen we at de ovrhead bridge dere .

dhen 198 go .

dhen ii so angry .

dhen we mis de fuhua de bus stop .

dhen we alight at de nex 1 .

lucky .

de interview iish stil nort ovr yett . (=

dhen ii was wearin hme clothees .

dhen lucky siyin gort xtra de uni .

dhen ii borrow frm her .

dhen she so tal .


ii wear her uni so funny .

dhen cindy say put plasters on moii legg .

dhen kann lie nn say datt cus injured moii leg . so diin wear skool shoes .

dhen steph , chyi yin, kai xin, jas , li feng all waited ferr miee . reali thkx eiuux guys . muackies .


thkx! <33


dhen 2dae ii was sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo sad .

ii nvr noe lurvin sme1 iish so pain ful .

ii kol all moii friens .

all bz .

cryin alone iish so painful .

feel lye diein now .

even if ii die ,

wil eiuux caree ferr miee?

wil ani1?


even if ii die .

de world iish stil de same .

same cycle everydae .

same ting happen . sun rises n set .

n nth wil change .

so iff m gone ,

wil eiuux feel beta wid ur family members .


wil eiuux feel beta widout miee .

will eiuux ?

ii hate moiiself ferr lurvin eiuux .

hate moii self ferr cryin so much ferr eiuux .

hate everytin n every moment of moii life wen im tiinkin off eiuux .

but ii kant control it .

kann ii?

ii lurve eiuux .

ii hate urr ans wen ii ask eiuux if eiuux lurve miee .

nn a mayb was all datt i gort .

ii hate de uncertain .

nn ii hate de certain even mo .

dyin . im reali dyin . kann ani1 tel miee hw tuu die ?

die in a world wid out eiuux .

die in a world of moii own imgination .

breathin widout eiuux make moii lungs choke .

eatinn widout eiuux makee moii stomach unable tuu disgest anitin .

singin widout eiuux makes moii song dead .

moi hart iish so pain widout eiuux .

ii hope ii hab no hart . no feelins .

if onli de whole habb choices . habb no choices .

no lurve . no certain . n uncertain .

no dreams n hopes .

so datt dey wun break .

makin moii hart so painful .

mayb moii tears rr moiii frien .

dey keep cumin out tuu meet miee .

so datt i wil b blind .

n oways cryiin in slience .

moii world habb no colours widout eiuux .

no melodies .

no life .

alone .

giddy now .

habben eaten since ytd .

except ferr datt timids ii bot juz nw .

ii wanna die . .

!


lurvin eiux wid al moii hart .

moii hart ferr eiuux .

livin corpse .

if eiuux arre moii frien .

dunch ask miee bouut tis .

ii might break dwn , cryin .

plz .

beggin eiuux .

thkx .


sigin off .


de gurl hu doesnt habb a soul .


* ii felt so worthless *



~ de soul engraved de lonely words .

cryin in de darkness .

alone .



wad iish lurve all about ?

smile ?

care?

concern?

truth?

lies?

hypocrite?

flirt?

untruth?

orrh


lurve iish bout pain ?


ii hate lurve .

ii hate iit tuu brin him pain .

ii dunch wan tuu see him in pain .

if kan . ii hope ii wil feel pain alone . n let him b happi .

ii dunch wan him tuu b sad .

ii dunch wan him tuu leav miee .


tel miee wad tu do?

arre gods a truth ?

yy do no 1 help miee wen ii pray ferr god ?


HATED HARTTED . MORBID LURVE .

SQUARISH UNCERTAIN .

AGGRAVATIN ENTRALLIN SADDNESS .

ADDICTION . TRUTH . ANTICING LURVE .